Category: Up Front and Personal

Many years ago, I was flipping through the television channels and came across a documentary about Jim and Tammy Faye Bakker. This was post scandals, but before Tammy Faye passed away at the age of 65 from cancer.

During the documentary, Tammy Faye discussed the early years when she and Jim were helping Pat Robertson launch CBN. She said they would come on each program and announce that they were broadcasting worldwide from Virginia Beach, Virginia, when sometimes the signal would not be able to reach the end of the street.

She said that they had the worldwide mindset. Put yourself out there like everyone in the world is watching you, even if there is no one watching you.

That’s how I have approached my podcasts, YouTube channels, Substack, and social media profiles. Here for everyone to see, even if no one sees.

Have the right mindset, and the rest will follow.

-I am a podcaster and YouTuber in addition to my full time job. I want the Podcasting and other ventures to eventually be my full time job. I work hard at it and it takes a lot of hours. It is rewarding.

There are times that I get frustrated, my anxiety ramps up, I wonder if I am good enough, smart enough, etc. Classic imposter syndrome.

I learned many years ago that the secret is just showing up. That’s it. Just keep showing up. The imposter syndrome may always be there, but if you keep showing up and putting the work in, you will get better.

-I’ve been sick this week, and I missed two days of work. That puts me behind on things that I need to accomplish. So when I get back into the office this morning, I have a list of things that need to get done.

How do I get it done? It goes back to discipline. You can have all the want and drive in the world, but until you actually put word to screen, pen to paper, etc. It means nothing. I was determined to write 5 pages worth of script for my podcast. I means nothing until I actually sat down and did it. Then it feels good when I get it accomplished.

-A lot of people I know have died lately. It’s all been distant relatives or family friends. It’s weird to me. They say death runs in three and I am up to 5 in the past 10 days.

I was thinking a couple of months ago that there seem to be two types of people. Those who would go to the funeral, but it is highly inconvenient to them for some reason. Then there are those who would go to the funeral if it were held at the North Pole on Christmas morning. I have been both types during my lifetime.

I have it. Certain public events just make me almost shut down due to anxiety. The worst one is events where I will be around people I know but haven’t seen in a while. Large family events or social events. I never know how to greet people or what to say. Weddings, funerals, gatherings, etc… It’s maddening to me.

Yet I go.

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I do the Wordle every day, but I’m not good at it.

I am spending this last day of September Friday afternoon in my office working on my to do list and drinking coffee. It’s raining outside and I am in a melancholy mood. Looking forward, not backward.

-Joey