I’m fat. There’s no gentle or easy way to put it. I have an eating problem. It has bothered me and caused me problems off and on my entire life. It has been commented on both in my personal and professional life. Children have come up to me and pointed and said you’re fat. It makes me sad, but there is no one to blame but myself.
To be rejected for my weight and looks hurts. Comments from family members and friends also hurt. When I call them on it, they say they were just trying to help and I shouldn’t be so sensitive. Turning my own words against me.
I live alone and don’t have many friends around, so I eat alone a lot. It feels like I’m always looked at. I’m always embarrassed. The title of this post comes from an episode of Everybody Loves Raymond. Ray’s sister in law Amy has a brother Peter (played by Chris Elliot). Peter is extremely socially awkward. He tells Ray that he got dressed up and went to a local bar to meet women. He saw one he liked, and we t up to her and asked her how she was. Her answer is the title of the post. I didn’t see the episode in question until this year, and when I did, tears started flowing. I know what Peter is feeling.
Bottom line, I’m fat, and I know it.